Journal Entry #8
What’s up? My holidays were good. We ain’t have a game. Usually during the holidays, I’m in another state, having a game or practicing, but it was good to be home in Sacramento with the kids. That was a good thing. And New Year’s Day, we had to travel to New York, so that wasn’t a bad New Year’s Eve. The only thing is the day after New Year’s, I had to get surgery on my elbow. That wasn’t cool either.
My elbow is feeling better than I thought it would be feeling. I only had a normal painkiller and that was it. I’ve been feeling all right. They said I wouldn’t be back until four weeks but I’m trying to get back in two weeks. I think I can be back in two weeks. I should be able to be back in two weeks.
We also had a good win against the Knicks. That was big for us, especially because we were without three of our starters. We have good players. My man John Salmon and Francisco Garcia have been stepping up at the two and the three on the wings.
With the Knicks, I have to keep them out of my brain for a little bit. I feel like it’s been a little distraction to the people’s progress. They said that I said I could save the Knicks and I never said that. People know my love for New York, but I’m at a point where I have a team that I’m worried about. I’m tired of answering questions and people are just printing things in the paper that are more of a distraction than a good story. I don’t even want to talk about the Knicks.
I’m happy in Sacramento. We have a beautiful thing out here. I’m playing with some good players. I got my man Kevin Martin and he’ a first team All-NBA guy. Playing with him is pretty cool. It’s pretty cool playing with him.
I also want you to check out my new song “90 Bars of a Slave”. I feel like a lot of people have been holding me down and holding me back from everything, from life in general to music to when I was playing basketball as a kid. I had so many obstacles to overcome and so many bumps in the road. In the song, I was just laying some things out and spitting some real lyrics and at the end of the song, I said, “Get your mind right.” It’s definitely a good song. The beat is hot and I think it’s definitely a positive song. I’m kind of happy with it.
As far as the feedback on HipHopGame, I don’t really pay attention to the negative comments. I saw somebody said, “Why you wanna rap because nobody’s going to be interested in you?” It’s not about people being interested in you. You make music because you want to make music, not because you care about people being interested in you. I make music for how I feel at the time. I don’t know how many people in the world are really interested in hearing my music, but if I got a couple of people interested in hearing what I’m making, I’m going to get it out there. There’s no sense in me keeping it in the computer. I leak it and I’m going to be putting out another project. I think I have a good 20,000-40,000 fans out there that like to hear my music and I don’t think it’s going to go beyond that and I’m satisfied with those numbers. I’m satisfied with those 20,000-40,000 people that go and actually listen to the music. I’m satisfied with that.
I also find that I have some fans of my music that aren’t fans of hip-hop but they’re fans of me as a basketball player. I have to find ways to get them the music. It’s been real hard for me to distribute my music and have it be available. That’s the problem I had with my last album. People were having trouble getting it. That’s where the internet comes in. I’m looking to find easier ways for the people who want my music to actually get it. I don’t spend my days trying to find ways to get people my music. I spend my days practicing and balling and when I get a chance I go in the studio. But people in the street, they still ask me when my album is coming out. I like to make music and it feels good when random people, not my friends, are asking for my music.
I’m also working on a new project. The project is definitely an eye-opening project. I think the tables are turning to where people want to hear lyrics and people want to hear stories and people want to hear albums. I think that’s where music is going back to now because there’s been a lot of dissatisfied consumers. There’s a lot of talk with people in the industry with people saying the music is just watered down and it’s not good anymore. You got guys like Kanye West and the album American Gangster. Nas’ album is a good topic and I don’t think it’s going to be as ignorant as people think it is. I think it’s going to be an intelligent and well put-together album and a mind-opening album. Even Alicia Keys’ album, look at how she took it back. Her album had that good feeling, like an old school feeling. It didn’t feel like a futuristic album. It gave you that old school feeling that sometimes you need to have. It’s that raw music and I think that’s where music is going back to.
Even though I’m injured now, I’m not going to be able to work a lot on Tru Warier. I just go in there when I’m feeling it. We’re in the season and my whole focus is on basketball. I hadn’t done a song in two weeks until I did “90 Bars of a Slave”. I heard the beat and I started writing and the lyrics started coming in my head. For the most part I’m going to be focusing on rehab and focusing on getting back on the court. When the season’s over, I’ll have a little bit of time to do a couple of things with my music. I’m going to probably get some other artists and get some other things in place that will probably be more full-time. My music is just like a part-time thing.
As far as this season, I had to sit out 10 games with injuries and I’m about to sit out another eight games. Kev sat out about eight games and Mike sat out about 20 games. We’re happy with the progress that we made. We beat San Antonio and Detroit. Those are our two biggest wins. We beat some good teams. We lost to Denver twice by two. We lost at the buzzer and we lost at home. We’re happy with where we’re at right now.
And I can’t say I’m surprised by how well Portland is doing. I think it’s about time that a young team plays well. It’s all about the coaching. I think coaching has a lot to do with it, but when I played against them, personally, I saw what kind of players that had. I was like, ‘Man, they got some good players who play hard and they have good individual skills and a great center.’ Anytime you have all those pieces, you have a good chance to win.
Once we all get healthy, we can compete with anybody. There’s no question about it. I just can’t wait to see us all healthy and playing together. We’re going to put together some wins and it’s going to be real interesting.
I didn’t really make any New Year’s resolutions this year. When the ball dropped, I was just chilling. I wasn’t really interested in New Year’s this year for some reason. I think New Year’s is cool and exciting. I think people just get drunk and all that and I don’t really have no interest in that. All everybody wants to do is get drunk. I really don’t have no interest in it because I don’t like to get drunk and do all that crazy stuff. The New Year for me is when school starts and my kids go to school. Then I see the New Year. That’s a real important time for me.
Happy New Year’s and all that. Littles is home now. That’s good. Everybody, look out for Littles. Look out for Nas’ new album. Look out for Prodigy’s new album. And go cop The Kush from Havoc. And I think there was a time when Queensbridge was popping and there was a time when Queensbridge had some down time in the music industry. Now I think Queensbridge is back, reaching that plateau. We understand that there are a lot of people out there trying to stop us. But this time around there’s the leadership of Nas and the Mobb Deep’s and the Lake’s and Littles is home. Artest is popping. Queensbridge is a movement and we’re about to be back on top. So, everybody, don’t try and stop us. Come aboard because Queensbridge is officially coming back. And shout out to everybody from Queensbridge.